I Am Fallen

I am a cruel angel who lives by candlelight
I wonder how the moon shines so brightly in a bitter world
I hear the crying of a bleeding child
I see the harshness that lay in people’s hearts
I want to feel the last waves of wisdom
I am mentally destroyed...

I pretend the world is peaceful
I feel my inner peace dwell
I touch the glistening waters
I worry that I will end
I cry when the fantasy vanishes
I am physically weak...

I understand my world expels me
I say "truth be damned"
I dream of the unending calm
I try to grasp the ideal
I hope the serenity beckons me
...until then...
I am fallen...